Some ponderings, expressions of the heart.

There is a longing fueled with excitement in my heart to be with other Christians - a longing that will stay until my eyes see Him face to face.  So Sundays, small groups, and Bible studies are usually the highlights of my week. 

Today, being Sunday, my heart seemed to have done a rigorous exercise - jumping up and down, turning inside out, twisting back and forth. My mind thinking it was running a marathon racing with so many thoughts - thoughts of confession and repentance, thoughts of praise, thoughts of dreaming & scheming for God's kingdom. I LOVE it. This is God working in my soul! He brings lots of feelings and ideas and convictions. And being the artist He has created me as, this usually fuels inspiration for creating things of some sort. 

I have learned that I am a human being that requires paper and a pen with me at all times - enabling me to record what God is revealing and moving in front of my eyes. It usually takes work and effort and time to go back to what the heck just happened.... neglecting this I believe is ignoring God's work in my life. Something I am working on doing - living a reflective life.  

So here are a few thoughts that are being pondering, with the hopes of refinement. May they encourage you!

Current thoughts ...

is the way I, the culture, even church culture, disregards the very words of God.

God, God the very Creator of the universe, the Sustainer of our very lives, the Savior that stepped into this world, who took on the entirety of humanity's  sin  (stop. just stop and thing about this. I don't know about you, but as I continue walking with Him,  I grow more and more aware of my sin. Growing more aware of the mess inside and that He took all of that for every person that lived, lives now, and will live in the future! ) Why?

 so that we might be saved. set free. brought near. called back to His arms. 

He cares. He LOVES.

And then I begin to think with His word - that He would speak to us, guide and direct us - He is NOT a God that is distant, that watches from afar. He is thoroughly involved in life yesterday, today, and 1000000yrs from now. Every detail, every shift and movement. He is actively involved. 

And to ignore this very God? To hear His words and walk away as if it was a light suggestion or words from a stranger down the street? This is GOD who I am talking about. Man, praying that these thoughts steep long and sink deep. To think about the implications of ignoring Him and His word - there are consequences, actions that follow.

 I believe a huge part of this struggle is TRULY believing that He loves us. Because if I dont believe that, then He becomes distant - He is pushed aside, fading further and further to the back. But no. He LOVES us fiercely - with a love that is blood stained and nail scarred. His words are not empty, but rich with life. Remember! Remember!

"He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, that we might die to sin and live to righteouness. By his wounds you have now returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls."  1 Peter 2: 24


He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us, oh,
Oh, how He loves us,
How He loves us all

Yeah, He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves.

And we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If his grace is an ocean, we're all sinking.
And Heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don't have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about the way...